So for a while I haven't been on this site, and I regret it.  I didn't realize just how many people honestly and truly have energy bounding from here.  I have been trapped on a road for the past few weeks that only few know a way off of.  There are no streetlights, no signs for direction, and no rest areas.  Only envy and jealousy light my way.  But now I have figured a way off, to the dirt road less traveled (if I may).  Although, in some of my previous posts I have made mention of jokers and clowns with facades that have stood in my way.  But true redemption and success is not marked in what has been accomplished, but in what shall be accomplished.  It is not marked in days that have passed, but in days to come.  As a paladin, I stand ready with my shield to fend off those who seek to harm me, with my blade I intend to inflict righteousness.  Not unjustly, but to those who truly are deserving.  I have sat back idle long enough, now is the time in which I take back what is truly mine.  My life, soul, and my love for those around me.  I have been cold and callous to those that have been close to me, I cannot justify this nor will I.  But I will try to rectify what I have wronged.  I do apologize to those that I have caused harm, and I wish to send them a beautiful release of energy in payment for my wrong-doing. 

A wise man once said, "It is better to have loved and lost, than to have never have loved at all."  But how is this true when you have accomplished that, and yet still feel lost? Life can be a chaotic explosion of excitement, while still mellow enough to embrace and love with a completeness.  So now that I have realized my wrongs, and have begun to try to right them.  I ask you, please, use all of your energy for good.  Don't hold on to bitterness, for it causes scorn amongst fellow man.  A smile can light a person's day and extend across a mountain, while a frown can cause an entire townfolk to despise the light.  

Blessed be,

Josh